It's been a while....a very long while....

And let me explain why.

When I got pregnant I was over the moon, I was thrilled beyond words. We both were. However I found it really really hard that while I was experiencing such joy others were going through so much pain and turmoil still facing the IF journey. Not just blog readers but dear friends who I know and love. I also had mixed emotions about this baby. While I was happy I was pregnant, I was still so angry, so hurt about the losses of the other two babies. In the back of my mind I wanted Baby Woggie more than I wanted this baby, and that felt wrong, so very very wrong. It took me a long time to overcome that guilt and to fall in love with the little one I am now growing inside me.

So let me give you a run down on the last 4 months!!!

I'm now only 5 and a half weeks away from having this baby!!! Can you beleive it?? I can't!

I threw up consistency until 18 weeks pregnant, and then a few more times after that!! Then at 28 weeks I got diagnosed with GD (Gestational Diabetes) which has made my life somewhat difficult in the last 6 weeks. My sugar levels are not being controlled that well and there is talk of me going on insulin, but when I get to the appointment to go on insulin somehow my body has redemed it's self and given me a few days of great levels. However not in the last week. There has been no last minute redemption thus far.

Because of the GD we had to have a health and wellbeing scan of our amazing little baby. It (we don't know if it is a girl or a boy) is just so so cute. Infact I couldn't be more in love. However our baby is on the large side. It should be measuring about 2.4kgs at this point and is currently measuring 3kgs. Which makes me sad, because I hate that my body is making my baby grow too much than is healthy.

Anyway, enough chatter from me.

Some pictures.

A belly picture from when I last posted to now.
17 weeks


Last week 33 weeks


Some pictures of our little baby....We have no boy names so if you have any suggestions, please make some! We can't see much of Daddy in these, but I think Mummy's lips and nose are there!!!




The room the little one will sleep in




A few from my baby shower last Saturday, it was a great day!