Who would have thought 2 years ago I couldn't stop blogging, I did it almost daily and my posts were long. And now, well now I've turned into a once in a blue moon blogger(although, I think there has been a blue moon since my last blog)
First and foremost. Happy New Year!
Congratulations to my fellow bloggers that have had babies since my last post.
They include Yaya who is going to adopt the lovely Alex (although it's just come to my attention that her blog is no longer available) Yaya if you read this I hope you are ok, I enjoyed reading your blog from time to time.
Megs who gave birth to her beautiful baby boy Aiden and
Oh Emily who also gave birth to a little boy, on a freezing cold winters night.
Now onto things closer to home.
We are still having sleep problems lots and lots of them, the maternal child health nurse wants us to go to 'sleep school' but I'm not sure I'm ready for that yet. He may be a crappy sleeper but he is still a little baby and I'm not quite prepared to let him cry it out. Maybe one day I'll be able to do tough love. But for now I'll happily live in my life of delirious sleep deprivation.
Mr Bear is now 5 and a half months old, it's so hard to believe that I am the mother to a baby that old! He does lots of clever things - like smile and rolls (only when it suits him) He is a daddy's boy but I get giggles and smiles too. He has started swimming lessons and has just graduated to putting his mouth underwater! Seriously scary stuff! He loves the water - a bit of a water baby like his mumma I think, hopefully not as dreadful at swimming like his pappa.
We have started him on food and he loves pumpkin - so much so he won't eat anything else. So I've taken to mixing other kinds of food with his pureed pumpkin! I try to give him rice cereal with expressed breast milk but it's not much of a hit, but I know the iron is good for him so I try my hardest to make him eat it.
I have days like today where I don't cope so well - days where for some reason unknown to me he just screams and screams and screams. On one hand my heart breaks to see him like that but on the other hand I find it difficult to cope with. I wonder on days like that if I have PND - I seem to have such a short fuse and really need to keep my self in check so I don't loose it. I'm so thankful that he is an easy going baby.
Despite the love I have for Mr. Bear I still think about our angel babies. Especially Baby Woggie. At the time I had a real feeling Baby Woggie was a girl and my heart aches for that daughter. Please don't get me wrong, I wouldn't give my son up for anything but I wonder so very much what that baby would have been like. It makes me sad that I will never know. Although I have no preference for either sex of child a think a baby girl at some point would help make it feel better.
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