CD 20 and still no O..

And it's not anywhere in sight. And I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being the poster girl for things not going the way I want them too.

I know I am lucky and there are so many more people worse off than I but I'd just like something to happen in the fashion that I'd like to happen in for ONCE. That would be nice.

I can't conjure up anything pleasant to say about my reproductive system and the moment and it's probably tainting my view on things a lot. But I'm so angry. About a squillion things but angry that I've had to go through what I went through to get Master C and angry that it just hasn't happened this time. And I'm angry that people weren't supportive the first time round so now I've told no one we are TTC again and really have no one to talk about it too, because so many of my IF friends are still trying for number 1 so it seems sooo inappropriate to be angry when I already have a baby.