Why can't I stop feeling angry. The smallest thing is pissing me off these days. I'm such a basket case. I just want answers, why did this happen to me? Have I not had enough bad luck in my life, I thought I deserved something to go the right way.
I know I am lucky, I have a wonderful supportive amazing husband who I could not do this without (for obvious reasons lol!) but I'm greedy and I want it all.
Everyone is bored of listening to me whinge about it now, not that I blame them, I'd be bored of me whinging too! It is just so hard to explain to someone how scary it is the possibility that you may never conceive a child, I have to think to myself, I may never be a mum. And I know there is IVF and all sorts of therapies going around these days and people tell me that. But it's not the point, I don't want to conceive through IVF I want to do it naturally, something that is becoming less and less likely.
I'm scared of the heart break that IVF is going to cause, nothing happening month after month is terrible but when you are going through so much to make it happen and it still doesnt is going to be excruciating. I don't know if I am strong enough to go through it. I guess time will tell.
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