Scared

Scared: (Verb) To strike with sudden fear; alarm.


That pretty much sums it up for me right now. In 12 hours we will have seen our baby. I'm petrified. I'm finding it hard to beleive that I'm one of those people that will walk out of the room with a giant smile on my face, happy tears in my eyes and with a picture of my baby. I don't feel like I'm that lucky, or that deserving.

It's hard not to expect the worst.

The only way I can compare what I am feeling is it being the day AF is due and it hasn't arrived yet, your period is never late so you feel hopeful that if you do a pregnancy test it will be positive but you can't get your hopes up because every other time you've done a test it's been negative.

There is no point going to bed because I know I will toss and turn all night long, thinking the worst, hoping for the best.