SEX!!

Now the reason I did come to post today, SEX. Who would have thunk that the decision to have sex again would be difficult. I've got huge mixed feelings about "doing it" I want to, because it has been AGES and when I say ages I mean possibly the longest time we have ever gone without doing the deed (apart from that time I lived 800kms away) . Poor Mr. Woggie must be suffering, he says he is ok and that the longer it goes on the easier it is. The other reason I don't want to do it is that I am scared, well petrified that if I don't get knocked up by doing the deed the normal way that most animals procreate, where to from there. I don't think I can handle the disappointment. Everyone is telling me that now I've had the op that it will just happen, for some reason I can't stop feeling cynical. Maybe because all of the advice from fertiles thus far, has got me no where "relax" "just go on a holiday" and "be positive" have all failed me thus far.

There is nothing more I want that to "relax" and forget about the whole thing, goodness knows I did try to forget about it by going on a holiday to Europe, to Russia of all places, we could hardly get further away from our humble little down under abode and yet nothing. Being positive, is easier said than done in the current situation.

This does sound dreadful, it sounds like I don't appriciate the support from the fertiles, I do, I just need more than the suggestions that get everyone else up the duff.