Will be very very good, or very very sad!
Dean and I have decided to 'try' again. Yes the plan was to wait until next year, but with my endo pain getting worse and worse each month it feels like time isn't on our side. So since my period came early on day 29 (Saturday) we have decided to give it another go this month. Which means I'll be due to test around or on Christmas Day. So Christmas could be a happy happy happy day. Or one full of disappointment and full of having my period.
I've started reading The Empty Picture Frame - An Inconceivable Journey Through Infertility. I can identify so much with what I have read so far, but it made me worry (yet again) that the last 19 cycles might only be the beginning of the TTC journey for Dean and I.
So as it stands the TTC journey is begining for us again. I've purchased some OPKs because the shortening of my cycle means I may not be ovulating on CD15 anymore. We are going to see Dr. Julie on Thursday and I'm feeling apprehensive about it. I'm scared she will tell me I can get pregnant and there is nothing she can do for me anymore. I'm sure she won't she will want to know why I've had 2 back to back miscarriages. I'm hoping it's just really really really bad luck.
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I wish you will get the best christmas present ever! And I hope your doctor can help you.
Good luck! Good luck! Good luck! (Shhhh...but hubby and I started TTC again this week!). My acupuncturist did some research for me (I've been w/ her through thick and thin) and found two books she liked: The TAO of Fertility by Daoshing Ni and Dana Herko and The Infertility Cure by Randine Lewis. She said they are basically both books for preparing and maintaining the body for a healthy baby-growing environment. I bought the first one for $10 on amazon and the second one is at our library so I'm gonna check that out.
Im right there with you on the Endo pain. Mine has come back full force the past couple of months, which probably only means one thing for me...
Good luck this cycle! I will be thinking about you :)
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