Happy 50th post to me.

Not that there is much to celebrate.

It is official we have lost Baby Woggie.

The day went a little like this.

No spotting or cramping feeling very hopeful and happy.

Doctors appointment 12.15, sit in waiting room until 1pm.

Doctor assures us that spotting and minor cramps are all normal.

Have an internal, cervix is closed, this is good news.

Go and have a scan at 2.30, they guy can't see anything in my uterus, gives me the option of an internal, I think he was hoping I would decline, he was very young, too young to be giving internal ultra sounds to barren women who know that no sack at 5w5d is very very bad. He tries to be hopeful and kind saying it could be too early, I know better.

Go home and sleep for one and a half hours. Wake up be in immence pain have lots and lots and lots of red blood.

5.00pm Ring doctor to confirm what we already know, a complete miscarriage. Doctor does not yet have scan results.

5.50pm Doctor calls back to tell me the results and tries to give me hope, that it could be ok. Until I tell her about the bleeding. She confirms, complete miscarriage.

6.00pm - Cry, wail, bawl, see Mr. Woggie cry for the first time ever. Heart breaks.