Someone please tell me. Part of me wants to jump into TTC right away, I'm feeling like we can do this and do it right this time.
The other part is feeling down and crap and scared shitless that this will happen ALL over again. That part of me never wants to TTC ever ever again. I know many people have had miscarriages and then gone on to have healthy pregnancies but after 16 months of TTC, it just seems all too hard. The 16 months seems to compound it even more, makes it even more of a struggle for me to deal with. I can't do this for another 16 months. I didn't even want to do it one more month and I was happy for Baby Woggie to be an only child. BUT NO. The universe ONCE again decided that I'm not deserving of good things to happen just yet. Story of my freaking life and I'm over it.
Anyway, I'm going to go and try to do something constructive.
Thank you for all of your kind words and thoughts, it does mean the world to me. I seem like a grumpy of bitch right now, that is probably because I am. Bitter and Twisted would sum me up perfectly. BUT I do love the support you have all given me. And please don't let me scare you away!
2 comments:
You have every right to be bitter and twisted. You need to cry; you need to be angry and that's just part of the healing process.
Well, you should start TTC when you feel you're ready to. For couples who have been through IF and what's more with m/c, will always have the added fear and be scared shitless.
Nah, you don't scare me away. I know you'll be ready to ttc when you're ready. You're a fighter.
((((hugs))))
K - I posted about your loss over at my blog, and Mamasoon wanted me to let you know how sorry she is for you (she said she has seen your posts in the blogs she visits).
Try again hon...really. You can do it..
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