The lady with the empty uterus.

That is me.

I got my ultrasound images from the scan from hell today. I don't know why they bothered giving me pictures of my very sad and pathetic looking empty uterus. What do I do with those? Maybe I should send them onto my FS, I'm actually tempted to put them through the shredder and then burn them.

All the way to the ultrasound on Monday, I thought we would see something. I didn't expect a heart beat, but I though there would at least be a sack. Not seeing the sack makes me fell like I was never pregnant, like it was all a big fat giant story I had concocted, like I had been seeing lines on pee tests every day for a week (Yes I was doing them everyday) that were not really there. But I remind myself, Mr. Woggie saw them too. You all saw them, I showed you. It must have been real. It just was not real for very long.

It was actually reveled that I have a 'Y' shaped uterus, which apparently means I could have trouble keeping a pregnancy, which is fantastic, I wanted more odds stacked up against me.

The doctor doesn't want us "having intercourse" until after my next period. I'm sorry lady BUT I've not "had intercourse" since I ovulated on the 24th of July. And I must say it was actually more like a business transaction that having enjoyable "intercourse" with my husband, and you are telling me you want me to wait for another 4 weeks, or until my body sorts itself out "You're dreamin" I'm pretty sure that is grounds for divorce isn't it?

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Song Number 2 - That "speaks to me" right now.

Time To Say Good-bye - Sarah Brightman and Andrea Bocelli.

Quando sono sola sogno all'orizzonte e mancan le parole, si lo so che non c'è luce in una stanza quando manca il sole, se non ci sei tu con me, con me. Su le finestre mostra a tutti il mio cuore che hai accesso, chiudi dentro me la luce che hai incontrato per strada. Time to say goodbye. Paesi che non ho mai veduto e vissuto con te, adesso sì li vivrò. Con te partirò su navi per mari che, io lo so, no, no, non esistono più, it's time to say goodbye. Andrea: Quando sei lontana sogno all'orizzonte e mancan le parole, e io si lo so che sei con me con me, tu mia luna tu sei qui con me, mio sole tu sei qui, con me, con me, con me, con me. Time to say goodbye. Paesi che non ho mai veduto e vissuto con te, adesso sì li vivrò. Con te partirò su navi per mari che, io lo so, no, no, non esistono più, Both: con te io li rivivrò. Con te partirò su navi per mari che, io lo so, no, no, non esistono più, con te io li rivivrò. Con te partirò. Io con te.

When I'm alone I dream of the horizon and words fail; yes, I know there is no light in a room where the sun is absent, if you are not here with me. At the windows show everyone my heart which you set alight; enclose within me the light you encountered on the street. Time to say goodbye. to countries I never saw and shared with you, now, yes, I shall experience them. I'll go with you on ships across seas which, I know, no, no, exist no longer; it's time to say goodbye. When you are far away I dream of the horizon and words fail, and, yes, I know that you are with me; you, my moon, are here with me, my sun, you are here with me with me, with me, with me. Time to say goodbye. to countries I never saw and shared with you, now, yes, I shall experience them. I'll go with you on ships across seas which, I know, no, no, exist no longer, with you I shall experience them again. I'll go with you on ships across seas which, I know, no, no, exist no longer, with you I shall experience them again. I'll go with you. You and me

It's a bit of a sad one. But I did say good bye to Baby Woggie the other night, I told him/her, that is was ok for him/her to leave us. I told Baby Woggie that I love him/her but it was fine to go.

And now for the song.