And I'm going to try my hardest to become an Iron Commenter, the way I see it there are 121 participants this month so that is an average of 17.something comments a day, so we will round that up to 18 and I SHOULD be able to do it. Thank goodness it is school holidays is all I can say and that Mr. Woggie is on night shift this week!
I'm starting to get anxious about TTC, ridiculously anxious. I know we probably shouldn't TTC when I'm feeling like this, but I can't not TTC because of the endo, the FS was adamant that October was the latest she wanted us to do it alone, so having a break is not really an option for us. I just wish I could be a normal person and just have enjoyable great sex with my husband and get pregnant. But I can't even think about sex being enjoyable and fun anymore, and that makes me so so so angry. Does it get better? I mean when you are pregnant or have had a child (apart from not wanting to have sex or being too tired) does sex stop being about making a baby and about enjoying being intimate? Or is it one of those things that will constantly remind me of TTC our first child.
I'm trying to do things like; paying no attention to what CD I am up to and not writing down in my dairy a possible test date, and I'm not going to be so strict with the philosophy of having sex every other day from day 10 to 18. So hopefully those little things will make things slightly better for me and help cure my anxiety. It's kind of ironic how when I was in my first relationship everytime my boyfriend and I had sex I was hoping to god that the condom wouldnt break and if it did that the pill would work. My, how times change.
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Good luck TTC and I am so sorry to hear about your loss.
My first month for ICLW. 18 comments a day- no problem (lol). You can do it.
I'm very sorry for your recent loss.
Best of luck trying to achieve Iron Commentator status.
Sorry about your recent loss.
Here from ICLW (attempting to do Iron Commentator as well). :)
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