Today I was thinking and I remembered reading a thread on a forum I frequent about when you become a Mum. There was a lot of discussion about it. Some said that you are a mother from the moment of conception others said not until the baby is born.
I don't know where I stand. *If* you consider motherhood starts from the moment of conception, what happens when you have a miscarriage? Do you get un-mumed, or do you stay as a mum. I'd like to consider myself a mother from the moment of conception and possibly if I was still pregnant I would be referring to myself as Mumma Woggie and not Mrs. Woggie.
I guess "physically" you are not a mother until you give birth to a baby, but I've carried a little live one inside me (albeit unsuccessfully and only for a very short time) but still enough.
So from dictionary.com
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) - /ˈmʌð
ər/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[muhth
-er] –noun 2. | (often initial capital letter ) one's female parent. |
3. | a mother-in-law, stepmother, or adoptive mother. |
4. | a term of address for a female parent or a woman having or regarded as having the status, function, or authority of a female parent. |
5. | a term of familiar address for an old or elderly woman. |
7. | a woman exercising control, influence, or authority like that of a mother: to be a mother to someone. |
8. | the qualities characteristic of a mother, as maternal affection: It is the mother in her showing itself. |
9. | something or someone that gives rise to or exercises protecting care over something else; origin or source. |
10. | (in disc recording) a mold from which stampers are made. |
–adjective 11. | being a mother: a mother bird. |
12. | of, pertaining to, or characteristic of a mother: mother love. |
13. | derived from or as if from one's mother; native: his mother culture. |
14. | bearing a relation like that of a mother, as in being the origin, source, or protector: the mother company and its affiliates; the mother computer and its network of terminals. |
–verb (used with object) 15. | to be the mother of; give origin or rise to. |
16. | to acknowledge oneself the author of; assume as one's own. |
17. | to care for or protect like a mother; act maternally toward. |
–verb (used without object) 18. | to perform the tasks or duties of a female parent; act maternally: a woman with a need to mother. |
—Idiom19. | mother of all, the greatest or most notable example of: the mother of all mystery novels. |
I guess in some form of the word I can be classified as a mother, paying particular attention to
9.something or someone that gives rise to or exercises protecting care over something else; origin or source. and
17.to care for or protect like a mother; act maternally toward.I most certinaly did exercise protecting care over Baby Woggie, I was more careful of what went into my body than I have ever been at any other time of my life. Coffee went, chocolate went, anything that wasn't grown out of the ground and freshly prepared by me, for me went out the window. So according to that I could be classed as a mother.
I also acted maternally toward Baby Woggie I sang to him or her, I talked to him or her and said goodnight to him or her, told him or how much I was in love with them.
I don't
feel like a mother though, I failed in keeping my baby healthy and alive, and I have nothing that looks and me and gives me love. So I guess I'm not really a mother, not yet anyway.
I'd be interested in hearing other opinions on this.
19 comments:
I am so sorry for your loss.
You raise a great question. I know some people who call themselves "Mommy" if they own pets. So, I guess the definition is very much up to the individual. I have two dogs, but while we love them very much, we do not call ourselves Mommy & Daddy.
I think if you believe that life begins at conception, then you definitely are a Mom. You didn't do the job badly. Your job is to love and protect to the best of your abilities. I am sure that you did that. What happened to you was no fault of your own. It wasn't because you didn't do your job.
ICLW
(Thanks for the comment on my blog)
I know what you mean, I also don't feel like a mother and I feel like I failed my babies miserabley. But having said that, I think I am on some level a mother, just not the conventional sort. I like to think of all those baby souls waiting for me one day...........
(ICLW)
If you feel like a mom, then you are. A life was growing inside of you and you were nurturing it and keeping it as safe as you could. Please don't blame yourself. I know that's easier said than done. (I've wondered a hundred times if having a beer at a birthday party before I knew I was pregnant or changing the cat litter that ONE time was what caused me to lose my baby, but I know in my heart those aren't the reasons.) If we blame ourselves for our lost babies we'll go crazy... Be gentle with yourself.
Also sorry for your loss.
Great questions. So hard when you long to be a mommy in the deepest part of you.
I agree with Georgia. I love my cats, but they don't make me a Mommy. When I called my mother to wish her a happy mother's day, my heart stopped for a moment when her husband wished me one. Took a few seconds to realize he meant my cats. Gee, thanks.
ICLW
I am so sorry for your loss. I think you are a mom, sadly your arms are empty, but your heart is full. You failed at nothing, we can only fail things of which we have some control. Also, you are a mom based on the dictionary definitions,
"15.to be the mother of; give origin or rise to. 16.to acknowledge oneself the author of; assume as one's own. 17.to care for or protect like a mother; act maternally toward. –verb (used without object) 18.to perform the tasks or duties of a female parent; act maternally: a woman with a need to mother."
I read all that and much more in your post. Wishing you the best to your family. Thank you for sharing, visiting from ILCW.
I'm sorry. I know this feeling well. I have wondered it myself but decided it only matters what you feel. I believe I am a mommy. My babies may not be here but I love them just as much as if they were here. I don't go around outwardly calling myself a mommy but in my heart I know that I am. You did not fail as a mom, it was not your fault. Hang in there. ((HUGS))
Im so voting for the fact you are a "mum"!
I think it does happen at conception. (the becoming a mother part)
lots of love! thanks for your comment on my page too.
-rachel
Honey, I think you are more a mother than I am...from what you posted....
I have never sung to Possum and I still eat chocolate...
it is confusing though, I know.
So sorry for your loss...
You are a Mum.
And you did not fail your little one. I know how hard it is not to blame yourself, but try not to.
Thanks for visiting my blog.
{{HUGS}} to you.
Oh, sweetheart, I'm so very sorry for your loss. I had two back-to-back miscarriages earlier this year, and I remember how much I (still) hurt.
And as to when you become a mother, I'd say that it's all in how you feel about yourself. If you don't feel that you are one right now, maybe you could try and think that someday you will be. You could think of your future self as a mother.
*sighs*
That's a crappy answer I gave, I know. It's not something I guess I know how to quantify.
I'm here from ICLW and I'll be back to check in on you.
So sorry for your loss.
I lost two before finally having my boys. I think I am their mother. But when people ask how many kids I have, I say two, not four. It's hard. I was a mother but it's like society doesn't recognize you as such. (ICLW)
Hun you are certainly a mother. I think of you as a Mum.
If you feel like you are then you are.
Sweetie you didn't fail your little one at all. Not one single bit *HUG*
I've thought about this question as well. Who is a Mother? Personally, I have seen more maternal acts come from women who are not yet Mothers than from women who already have children.
Thank you for stopping by my digs. I am so sorry to hear about your little one. I lost my first in June at 10 weeks. I hate that we must unite in this way, but just know that you are not alone.
I think what really makes the difference is what feels right to you? There are more ways that motherhood is undefinable than there are definable. If it feels right and natural to consider yourself a mother, then rest well with it.
What happened is not your fault. Thinking of you...
ICLW
Thanks for your ICLW comment...
If you consider Baby Woggie your child, which it seems that you do, then logically a child has to have a mother and that would be you. Certainly the women whose children have been stillborn or died very young seem to consider themselves mothers. I don't think the mother line is the same as the miscarriage/stillbirth line, so it must be wherever each of us draws it.
I felt love for M/C #1, but felt nothing much for #2 (which I lost earlier but also was more guarded about). Does that mean that I was mother to #1 but not #2? Or neither? Probably not both, and probably not neither. A little strange, but that's how it feels at least.
You have asked a difficult but thought-provoking question! :)
Oh sweetie you are a mother. You loved and cared for your little one and that is what a mother does.
I'm very sorry for your loss.
I hope that the opportunity to try again is very soon.
And thanks so much for commenting on my blog.
ICLW
For me motherhood began way back in the days I when I was battling infertility...the shots, the ultrasounds, egg retrieval, etc The times I carried life inside of me, whether we're talking about the 2 week wait or the times I miscarried. I became a mother way before my son was born.
It's such a weird awkward thing isn't it? Personally, I agree with everyone else that you are a Mum at conception, but I can understand why you wouldn't feel like one.
I've blogged before about how I've felt like a Mum after caring for Miss J last year. I don't think that would have happened with any foster kid but as she effectively has never had a Mum and was truly desperate for one, I did find myself slipping into that role for her. And to be honest, I got just as much out of it as she did. If I'm really truly honest, I do still feel like a Mum of sorts. But I'd never call myself one in public.
I am so sorry for your loss. I feel that you are a mother from conception. I have had several miscarraiges. Everyone of those, hurt like heck and the pain was overwhelming in my heart. When I first found out about any of my children, I was their mother. Nobody could ever tell me any different. I still think about them that I have lost and hadn't known their sex but, I named them all. So, yes, you are a mother, in my eyes you are.
Thank you for leaving a comment on my blog.
ICLW
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