Andrea.

Andrea was my cousin, she was born on the 15th of August 1970 and passed away on the 1st of October 2003 - 5 years ago today.

This morning I took some beautiful Iris' and went and visited her and had breakfast with her. It is a tradition, my Mum and her parents do it on each anniversary of her passing. Probably the most tragic thing about Andrea's death, was that she left behind 3 beautiful children all very very young, with the baby only 18 months old. Andrea wanted nothing more in her life than to be a wife and mother and it is so so sad and cruel and unfair that she was only able to fulfill that dream for a few short years. Andrea was 12 years older than me, and I remember looking up to her when I was young and whenever I had a huge decision to make I would think "What would Andrea do"

We had a really really close bond, and I miss her, miss her so so much. I feel bad that in the last few years we neglected each other, she got busy with being married and having a family and I got busy with being a rotten teenager. When I was 15 I was her bridesmaid, I wanted to be her flower girl and constantly asked her that when I was young!!! I always vowed to have her as my matron of honor but she never made it to see me get married, instead I had her beautiful daughter as my flower girl.


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Now onto other 1st of October News. I was supposed to be 12 weeks pregnant today, luckily, I have a wonderful friend 'Tulip' who took me to get my nails done, took me to Lunch and Coffee and generally helped me feel a whole heap better than I would have if I stayed at home alone. Tulip really is a person in a million, I met her online quite sometime ago and then we met in person in January this year and we just clicked and have seen each other quite regularly ever since. It is Tulip's birthday today and instead of thinking of herself and spending the day with her two beautiful sons she spent the day with me. Words, really can't say how I feel about her, she means so much to me and is one of my best friends.

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I've been a bit lazy with blogging since ICLW, I just needed to take a little break after all of my 122 messages I wrote! I definitely have some new favourite blogs, I learned so much during my visits and I really enjoyed doing it!

Nothing is happening in the TTC world, I'm supposed to be ovulating right about now but since I have no 'fertile' signs, I'm not sure what my body is doing.

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