All I want for Christams Is YooooUUUUUuu BABY!

Yes, I'm singing! I can't help myself! I'm not in the least bit interested in Christmas this year - infertility being the major player there.

But I surprised myself today and bought a Christams CD - A whole CD dedicated to putting ridiculously irritating songs in my head for the next four Christmases - but I thought, one day, one Christmas I might just have a little person to dance around to those songs with. I hope.

It's also very appropriate that track 11 on my CD is the song "All I Want For Christmas Is You" Not the Mariah version either. Some Australian Choir version - I couldn't find that on you tube!





And it is so true - All I want for Christmas is a Baby - that's not going to happen so I would gleefully settle for a positive home pregnancy test. I've been joking with my friend Z that if I get a positive HPT in the days leading up to Christmas that I'm going to buy a whole pack of the buggers and pee on them and wrap them up and given them to everyone as their Christmas gifts. Most people probably won't appriciate the crusty gesture of my absorbed urine, I don't know why! But I figure I've traveled a hard road and I'm entitled to be ridiculously happy if my one true Dream comes true.

I did another OPK today it was stronger than yesterdays - so that means that I'll now be ovulating between now and CD19 - It's starting to get a little late in my cycle for my liking. I've always felt sorry for people with long cycles, because it seems like they are missing out on more chances to make a baby and here I am gradually getting a longer cycle. This will be something I'll speak to Julie about I think.

The Christmas Spirit is calling me once more - I'm off to make some Christmas decorations - I'll show pictures when I'm finished some!