1. I've never had a positive on an ebay cheapie, even when I was pregnant so I would only end up disappointed.
2. I'm only 10DPO and I know perfectly fertile people get positive HPTs that early, but I'm seriously not one of those perfectly lucky fertile people.
3. I wouldn't be using FMU, which is probably essential at this point.
4. I would bet almost anything that I'm not pregnant, I have all of my pre-AF symptoms.
Other than that crazy outburst of feeling the desire to test (I did just empty my bladder so I couldn't) Nothing of interest is happening in the TWW, I've still got sore boobs that come and go. And I've decided that I need a colour chart for my nipples, I noticed in both pregnancies my whitey mc whitey nipples went a darker colour, but It's so hard to actually tell if they look darker or if it's just the light at the time, so a nipple colour chart would be ideal right about now.
I'm having a bit of an angry day today, I'm not sure why. It could be the fact that I literally cried myself to sleep last night, Dean came home and found me as a blubbering mess at midnight, poor guy. He was wonderful though - he went put the air con on for me it was 30 degrees in our bedroom at midnight! Then he got me my drink bottle and filled it with chilled water, got my aspirin (that I forgot to take) and then he just sat and stroked my arm and face until I fell asleep. I really am so lucky to have such a wonderful husband. Sometimes I forget that.
Tonight I'm going out with my wild friend Jo. Jo has lived all over the world for the last few years and I've missed her. I've flown to see her in various places from time to time and we always catch up when she comes home! Now she is home for good though forever! Jo is wild, she isn't married and is very happily not married, she has no idea about any of my infertility or my losses which I love because she still treats me like the person I was before all of this. Anyway I'm sure I will have a great time I'm actually really looking forward to being normal.
This is us last Christmas drinking our frozen daiquiris at the Treasury Casino (that is where were always start our nights out!)
Jo on the left, me on the right!
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Husbands like that rock. You obviouslly have one and I'm so glad for you.
Have a wonderful time - going out and - relax!
Back away from the tests, lady :)!
HAve fun out tonight!!
You look so, so happy in that picture. I hope you can recapture that when you see her again this time. You deserve it.
I'm sorry you got all angry. Infertility plays with the mind every single day. You can't help but think about it.
I've been praying that Santa gives you your wish all wrapped up in a pee stick that says PREGNANT.
ps. You look so cute! And 30 degrees? Can you blow some heat here to Melbourne? It's freaking cold still!
Gotta love the 'wild friend'-I've got one of those!
Sorry you were crying yourself to sleep :(
(((Hugs)))
I'm the same way-those cheapo hpt's don't work for me. The only good thing about being on my progesterone is that I DON'T test everyday until I get my period (it would show false-positive).
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