How it has been different this time.

I thought, when I started to miscarry 'At least I know what to expect this time' How wrong I was! Nothing at all has been the same.

Last time I got minor cramping accompanied by heavy bleeding, but emotionally I was a wreck.

This time, my miscarriage kicked off with 1 day of spotting (it was 4 days last time) accompanied by vomiting on and off on Friday. The cramps this time lasted for 3 whole days. With really really heavy bleeding. And by the looks of it the bleeding will last a lot longer than last time too.

Emotionally, I'm doing ok. Although I'm scared because I was doing ok at this point last time too. And emotionally I'm not over the loss of Baby Woggie, so I don't know if I've even comprehended this loss yet. I'm feeling a lot more angry, bitter and twisted and frustrated now.

Last time, I felt positive that I could get pregnant, it was a miracle and that was my silver lining. This time I can't find a silver lining, sure I can get pregnant, but that means nothing when you can't stay pregnant.

I think my body is giving up, I've got a horrible head cold, it really is telling me to take a break from it all. So I'm going to listen. I've shut down my FF account for now so I can't obsess over which CD I am on. I want to get some romance and love happening with Mr. Woggie again, hopefully not actively TTC will help us get that back.

Thank you to everyone for all of their lovely comments in my last post, it is so nice to know that I have all of you.